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So it's always funny how things work out... that was the main point of my day yesterday. Have you had one of those days where no matter was said to you or what was going on around you, you were still in such a great mood and still have a smile on your face?! Well that was totally me yesterday and I LOVED feeling like that! I even saw things that would normally upset me and make me question things, but not yesterday. I think yesterday was just my "peace" day. Random, I know but I understand what's being said.
I finally came to terms that my best guy friend and I are meant to be just really really great friends. It was hard. Not gonna lie. I think I just love and enjoy our friendship so much that us girls just tend to think "Well, let's see where a relationship would take us." Not always the best thing. But we finally did some talking and hanging out yesterday and just made me realize "Alright, we're gonna stay in that 'gray area' and be really great friends!" In a sense, like a weight was lifted from my shoulders. It made me feel better knowing that I wouldn't continue to have all that confusion on my mind.
Have you really ever wondered how much a person can take ... ? I mean mentally and spiritaly? You know we all say from time to time "UGH, I CAN ONLY HANDLE SO MUCH!" Right now my family is going through of those "..i can only handle so much.." phase. I truly do hate seeing them go through all this. I mean it's almost like everyone is. With the way the economy is going right now, gas prices costing all of us our first born, the price of milk being almost as high as buying a cow.. I mean it's just crazy! But today when my dad was telling my stories, all I could do was look at the humorous side of the situation and laugh. At first, he was like "WTF Brandy? Why are you laughing?!" But then I was like "Dad, sometimes that's all you can do.. You can't make yourself crazy over somethings that you have no control over. Well you kinda have control but as far as doing something about it right now..yeah, not gonna happen." He finally realized what I was saying and figured out that I was right. Brightened his day for at least a minute, which made me feel better.
But in all honesty, when you laugh it does make things a little better. I really think God makes it a point to put something in our life to just make us stop and be like "HAHAHAHAHAHA!" Today I think that point was when I went into work. The dry sense of humor that office of ladies has is just something that I believe everyone should experience from time to time. If not, then they are totally missing out.
So I'm actually ready for Spirit Days this summer. I can't believe it's my FOURTH summer to do this! WOW. I've already talked to some awesome parents and kids and I can tell who already is going to be my "spirit days mom"! I love parents like that. They are the ones that make all this worth while. I'm even a tad excited about our backpacks. Although after looking at them, I can already tell I'm gonna feel like "Dora the Explorer" while I have those on. I think I'm just gonna put it on and take a golf cart and just randomly drive by people and yell "VAMOS!" ME LLAMO DORA!" and just see what the reactions of people are. It's gonna be great!!!
Hope everyone has a great Wednesday! Just think ... Friday is almost here!!! :)
So today is hotter than Satan's toe nails! Oh moly. When we went to hit around a few tennis balls today, my car said it was 106 degrees outside.[P.S Don't go hitting in the heat! It feels good to sweat but wow.] And I think a cold front has moved in cause it's gone down 6 degrees to 100. Better pull out the jacket. One good thing though, got a heck of a tan in 45 mins that we were outside! Yes!
So this week is already going better than last week. Which I'm SOOO happy for. Life is always so much better when you have the most awesome in your life to help you through things and it always helps to talk things out too. And hugs can always make things better! :)
Katelyn and I did discover something today while playing a game of tennis. We don't play like normal people. Now, let me explain before you go "WTCrap Brandy?" Ok, normal people lightly hit the ball back and forth usually with a bounce in between. Yeah, not with me and Katelyn. We hit with our hardest and we do so much more better when we hit the heck out of it to each other! Usually with the no "in between" bounce. It's a great stress reliever.
Also, I'm not allowed around dirty cars when I am tispy. Let me explain, the other night I was a tad 'relaxed' and decided I should write in the dirt on Katelyn's car. Apparently I wrote "You rock balls" Totally unaware of that until Katelyn told me today that her mom noticed it this weekend. Whoops. No more car writing for me in the future. So if you have a dirty car and I've had a few drinks, and I happen to be around your car.. BEWARE.
I also discovered today that there is a certain person that I can't be mad at .. at all. No matter how much I tell myself what that person has done, the minute I see that person, I'm like "How can you be mad at a face like that?!" Ugh. Boys and their stupid, beautiful smiles. Really makes a girl week in the knees.
With all that today, today was the first time in a while that I truly didn't have anything on my mind that bothered me. Which is a nice change for me. It was also nice at work with all the phone calls being NICE and FRIENDLY parents. Love it when that happens. I even found a girl that is going to be starting the RAD program that same time I will be. The mom is excited. I think she adopted me through the telephone. Sweet.
Well I guess I should get dinner done. And for dessert... my lovely cheesecake. [I've been told it's better than that from The Cheesecake Factory :)]
I must say I'm a huge fan of listening to the sound of summer rain showers. And according to Kenny Chesney, there is something sexy about the rain .. Ha! Sorry, just had to! But when you do have that 'special someone' to kiss in the rain, I can see what he means! Ha!
So right now I feel like life is ONE BIG ball of confusion. Everything from home life, school, love life, friendships, work life .. just EVERYTHING. I hate that feeling too. I keep having weird dreams that make me question things constantly. They are dreams that wake me up in the middle of the night and then I can't go back to sleep. They are dreams that seem so real I end up texting friends the next day to see if things are alright. I feel like nothing from the past two weeks has gone right at all. And I feel like I'm turning to the wrong things to help with this confusion ... which just adds more problems. Like I said from previous post.. I'm feeling magenta once again.
I think it's just time for a break from this place. I really really really hate not being able to make it home for Father's Day/Dad's birthday! :( But it's like .. what do ya do? Life still goes on. I'm not going to be able to make it home until 4th of July. But hey at least I'll get to make it home then. So far this summer has not been going how I planned at all so far ... hopefully things will start to look up.
So I'm very glad it's Friday!! I'm so flippin tired too! I slept for a good 4 hours today after work and it was FABULOUS!
Finally got my car fixed. Took a big bite out of my check book but hey as in the famous quote from my parents .. "Welcome to the Real World!"
This weekend is going to be filled with sleeping, cleaning and catchin up on my TV time! F.A.B.U.L.O.U.S!
I'm missing a friend's wedding this weekend.. Bummed about that because I haven't seen this girl since we've graduated!! 4 years ago! CRAZY! And I hadn't seen some of these people also since we've graduated. I can't believe how many people from our class are either hitched or about to get hitched. I can't imagine being married right now. I'm having too much fun here with everything and everyone! But as they say -- things happen for a reason! I know God has plans for me in a BIG way!
Hope everyone's weekend is great! :)
...that's how I feel. As some of you know - I'm pretty much obsessed with "The Golden Girls". They pretty much make the day better!
In the famous words of Blanche, I feel 'magenta'. Kinda like I'm feeling right now, She wasn't exactly blue, but she wasn't exactly happy and she wasn't necessarily green with envy, but she was a bunch of mixed up emotions at once - she was magenta. And that's how I've been feeling lately. Happy and yellow, sad and blue, green and slightly envious, anxious and orange, red and angry... you get my point.
I think it's just because I have so much on my mind right now, it's ridiculous. And to make it worse, it's about things that I have no control over. It's not something simple like "Oh I want a new haircut. OK let's go to the beauty shop and get it done. Problem solved." It's about decisions that are ones that work themselves out. I am such a worrier though. I always have been. That's one of the qualities that I sometimes don't like about myself. But hey, I can't help it. It's who I am. I've always been the one that tries to keep things in perfect harmony. I don't like it when there are any types of walls put up around people or awkwardness. But life wouldn't be life if all that didn't happen.
Hopefully I'll get over this mood. I hate being in this mood. I think a lot of it has to do with an action that I've made recently and it prolly just back fired on me. I really hope what I think will happen, doesn't happen. I'd be losing a wonderful friend. *sigh* Guess only time will tell. Another thing, I hate ... waiting.
Wow. I didn't realize how much I missed blogging. I used to update XANGA like everyday back in the day. Now I'm glad I decided to pick it back up again. I think I'll like this more anyways. XANGA was gettin to be full of creepers. That could just be me though ... Although I'll prolly be the only one reading this, it's still a nice outlet to vent and think some things out ...
So this weekend was full of emotions and eye openers, to say the least.
I get a phone call from my father on Friday with a shaky voice of tears forming. One thing that COMPLETELY breaks my heart is seeing/hearing a man cry (in person or phone call). He had just gone out with some buddies from work and found out that one of his co-workers/friends had been shot and killed the night before at a local bar. It hit my dad pretty hard because that night after work they had all hung out in the parking lot just chillin and unwinding after hard night of work. His friends were all going to the bar to unwind some more and invited my dad to go also. My dad said it was good and decided to call it a night. WOW. What if my dad DID go with them to the bar? Talk about an eye opener.
It made me re-think ALOT of things after talking to my dad that night. Realizing that I fret about stupid things that I have no control over and that I shouldn't be wasting my time over things that I also have no control over either. Realizing that life is too short for anything. Just have fun and remember it's YOUR life. :)
So I decided that Saturday was going to be a great day! And indeed it was. A day full of working out and playing tennis while working on my tan. YES! Can't get much better than that. Although I God did bless me with a natural tan, I still need to boost it up a tad! HAHA! :)
Today was pretty much mellow. Did quite a bit of cleaning, which is always an accomplishment. Oh- also found out that my battery is completely dead in my car. Yeah. Not always what you want to find out when you are on your way to a friend's house. Thankfully I have amazing friends that take care of me ... and will also tomorrow! :) OH- also got a beautiful new Coach purse from NYC from my fabulous friend! Pretty much a beauty! : )
So that's pretty much all for this weekend. I did find a quote that pretty much sums up the love life right now: "He's not my boyfriend but I love his hugs, his smile, his advice, his kindness and the times we laugh together. I guess I feel in love with our friendship." Couldn't have said it better myself. I've decided to let faith take care of the love life.
Goodnight! :)
