Dear February - Was there a reason why you sucked?

So dear February February February -- where did we go wrong? I thought you were suppose to be the 'love' month and blah blah blah ... Well in 2009, you must have decided to take the year off! *LoL*

First off: I have something that needs to be said to a certain someone. And what better way than to do it on the blog! So here goes:

[First, I know that I have done some things that I probably shouldn't have BUT that's part of life and those are lessons learned. Yes, I'm not the person that I thought I'd be 5 years ago. But that's called growing up and finding out who you REALLY are. I'm having fun right now and learning more and more about the person that I am and that's what matters. Don't sit there and judge me when you do the EXACT same things that you are judging me for. I'm sorry that I am busy all the time and you feel like I'm ignoring you. It's called being an adult and having stuff on my plate that needs to get done and excuse me for being involved and having a life. It actually cracks me up that you spend so much time wondering about my life and what I'm doing. It's kinda flattering to think I'm that interesting. But if you have that BIG of a prob with me and my life choice right now, you know where the door is. I know who my true friends are.]

*sigh* I feel soo much better! Moving on... *LoL*

So the wonderful thing that was happening in January happened to spill over into February which made me happy. However, it ended as quickly as it started. It's a lesson learned and in the end, I ended with having a good friend and getting to know him more and more every time we talk. It was a dark day though for me. I hadn't cried that much in a long time. And bless my poor co-workers... I tried to hide it but they know me too well and could see it in my face. It was like one of those things that I was fine until someone said something to me and then Niagra Falls came out of my eyes! Haha! But thank god for having amazing friends to lean on during all that. [Gracias Michelle & Shahala & AnTuan! :)] It just sucks to have all these amazing guys in my life and yet, there is a barrier for each and every one of them of why it won't go anywhere. Whether it be that they are already with someone or they have their own personal barriers, it just sucks. I mean, I'm glad they are in my life as friends but DANG IT! Haha!

One good thing is that I did go out more during this month. Oh the lovely Alpha party for Valentines Day... those boys know how to throw a good one! And then the Sigma party later on in the month where I was blessed to take Michele to her first 'multi-cultural frat party' [didn't really know how to word that without making it sound weird or racist! LoL] Boy, oh, boy that was a night to remember! Let's reminisce with some quotes from that evening, shall we:

Michele: "Brandy - that's the car he was driving!"
Me: "Omg - he beat us here! He told me he didn't know if he was coming out here or not!"
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Me while Michele had the car door open: "CLOSE THE DOOR!"
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Michele: "Can you promise a cute white air force man?"
Me: "I can get ya a black man wearing air force ones! Will that work?"
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and the best for last: ".... and we DID hang out!"

**Michele: I had so much fun with you that night! You are now officially my going out buddy to those parties! You, me and Skins! hahaha!**

And last but not least, let's not forget the nights at Stage. Oh boy. Those memories will stay in my mind and better off not written out! haha! :) But all in all, the going out parts of this month have been great!

I have noticed that this month has been the month of JUDGING. People are getting judged who they hang out with; people are getting judged on maturity levels [cause apparently we don't decide those... 'Hey Michele - What' s the level today?!' :)] and apparently, I am getting judged for going out more this semester. Last time I checked, I'm a 22 year old gal wanting to have a great time and dance. Didn't know that was such an act of crime. Hmm, maybe I should check up on the latest laws. But on a happier note: I am LOVING the crew that I go out with now to parties. I'm getting loving the KDChi girls more and more I hang out with them and I love it EVEN MORE that Michele has joined us! I have really felt that I've gotten closer and tighter with the most amazing girls ever. It makes for one fun crew! The Sigma party was so much fun with them. Too bad we didn't have a camera. Actually, prolly a good thing we didn't have one!

And oh the basketball game against WTAMU. I'm REALLY surprised we weren't kicked out of that one. Especially with Dr. Farrell sitting kinda close by. Haha! But that was a fun night as well.

One best part of Feb was the Steelers WINNING the Super Bowl! Oh what a night, what a night that was in the Reyes household! Those last 2 minutes were heart attack city in our house! But what a game that way! :)

I don't think I'm been to Starbucks as much as I have lately. Which is a good thing! Thank you Michele for that! :) It's a good study place as well as a good place to people watch.. Oh lordy some people just don't own a mirror, do they?

Ok - so now that I look back on it, I did have some great moments. I think it just sucked in the area of relationships and certain friendships. This for sure was a month of finding out who I can and can't tell things to AND who my true friends are that will be there for me no matter what. I was hoping the one relationship would have kept going but in REALITY, it's better off that we kept it as friends. I have just come to conclusion that we can't control the things that we would like to have most control over. So whatever happens, HAPPENS! :)

Hopefully March will go better, not only for me, but for all my friends as well. February was just brutal to everyone, it seems. So here's to March and no negative thinking! :) :) And whatever happens... HAPPENS! Sometimes they are the best adventures yet!