A whole different day ...

Soooo I'm feeling ALOT better now! Thank goodness for that. :) I put all my friends through so much hell last week and I hated it. I did not like the person I was becoming at all! But with one quick call to the doctor, we got it all switched out and all is well now!

Today my brain is mush. I had a test and a midterm today and I'm just soooo tired. But hey, that's college life. And I have a paper due on Thursday that I should prolly get finished up. Next week is gonna be a killer as well. The more I look at it, every week till Thanksgiving break is gonna be a killer! Oh well - I'll get through it! Have no choice .. haha!

This weekend was a good one. Saturday was pretty much dedicated to studying my brains out. Didn't step outside once at all. Then on Sunday is when the real adventure began! My two wonderful friends Luke and Katelyn took me to their hometown of Sachse. Sooo much fun! It was the break that I needed! Left at 8:30 in the morning and jammed out to some old school stuff. *couch*NSYNC*cough*Backstreet Boys* oh I think some 98 degrees was thrown in there somewhere too! It was so much fun and I love them 2 like a brother and sister so it was the perfect way to spend a Sunday! :) We jammed on the way back to some good 'ole country music. Well let me re-phrase that... Luke and I sang our little hearts out while Katelyn looked at us like we were losing our minds. haha! Them two really helped me get out of my funk too. I just heart them so much! :)

So far this week is going good. Just those tests have taken a toll on me. I'm just ready for this weekend because I MIGHT be going home so dad can take a look at my car. It'll be a nice break for a while.

So let's get on to the REAL reason people read this blog: the boy situation is going good. I love how we work too. There is no pressure to call or text or anything. If we want to hang out, we'll just text each other and sometimes we get the response of "i'm studying" or "maybe tomorrow" and we're cool with that. We're just having fun getting to know each other and I like how relaxed we both are. And we don't have a title either, which I like. We have talked about it though. So we'll see on that.

Still haven't decided if I'm gonna go snowboarding with my best guy friend yet. I really want to and then I don't. There are just so many factors that are good and then so many factors that are bad. *sigh* I have until the 31st to make up my mind. What should I do guys?!?!

Well I better get back to work! Thought I'd update ya'll [well by request!! haha!] on what is going on and that I'm doing ALOT better!!

Hope everyone is having a great week so far! Much love to ya'll! :)

For once...

...I wish people would find out what's going on with me before a judgment is made on me. I understand I haven't been my normal upbeat self this week due to this new medicine, however, it's not like I'm doing it on purpose...

Oh the lovely adventures that make our lives..

Soo um wow it's been a while since I've blogged!! Let's get reacquainted shall we...

Oh where do I begin?! Let's see... went home for the WT -vs- MSU game. Sooo good to be home! LOVED IT! I love how they start the parade with running the buffalo down the street to kick it off! And as always, the fair food was UH-MAZING! :) Corndogs and funnel cakes, ya can't go wrong!! And to top it off I go to see two of my old high school friends who I haven't seen since graduation!!! Pretty much awesome. But then I did realize how much we all have changed. But it was good to see them though.

However, the game on the other hand was just not that great. First off, it rained and delayed the game for 45 minutes. Thank goodness for thinking ahead and taking umbrellas. It was fun though cause some people embraced it, while others hated it. But my family and I had a blast with it! One thing I like about WT games is that they play some awesome music before the game and it's stuff that you can really jam out to. Great stuff. Also, the buffalo took a dump on the field before the game started. Priceless and hilarious all at the same time. MSU didn't win the game. :( Heck, I don't even think the team showed up. jk. WT is just an amazing team though and they did a great job. We ended up leaving after 3rd quarter cause of my hell-acious headache. It was such a horrible headache that ended with me sleeping for like 12 hours straight.

But it was a great weekend at home. Nice 3 day one. Only sucky thing was that I had to go to the doctor. No bueno. But now at least I know what's wrong with me. Haha! And it involved me and my mother having a bonding experience for sure!!! Haha! But it was a great time at home. Wish I could go home more often but that's just how the cookie crumbles. <-- yes, totally just took that from "Bruce Almighty."

Although that weekend could NOT have landed on a WORSE weekend. This week I had 2 tests and a quiz and plus with it being HOMECOMING week full of madness, I needed that weekend to stay here and get things ready. But it all worked out in the end.

So Homecoming is this week. Always LOVE the week!! One thing that saddens my heart is that this is my first year that I didn't compete in the Banner competition. 2 out of the 3 times I've done it for UPB, we've placed. And I still have all those banners too chilling in my closet at home. I love them though. So much work goes into them and you just feel so proud to see it hanging in the atrium. Bonfire was last night. Sooo much fun! Thursday was just an awesome day in general. Bonfire and torchlight is just a blast anyways. My favorite part is at first we are all crowded around the bonfire and then as soon as they light it, WHOOSH, we all back up!! It's like we can't back up fast enough! haha! And more fun came afterwards when we went out to the Alpha party ... Oh lordy lordy!

First off, managed to rope in Franny to go with me. Sooo glad I did! It was quite the experience for him! Didn't get out there til midnight (which is usually my bed time.) got up to the door and showed our ID and went up to pay cover charge. Let's just say it's awesome to have connections and not pay full price. We get in and it was nice cause it wasn't too crowded. There was just enough people to where you could walk through and not be afraid to grab someone's ass or chest. Although some people like that. However I am not one of those. So we get in, get some drinks (a lovely bacardi and coke for I), find AnTuan and begin the fun. And let me tell ya, we DID have fun. Let me ask something: Do people REALLY look at themselves in the mirror before they leave their place and go "Damn! I'm hot stuff!" Cause I really think all those people were in that joint that night. I mean, I'm no Cindy Crawford or anything but I try to look pretty nice when I go out. But holy moses... Let me just make a list for you of what our eyes saw that evening:

* A 60 year old white lady with a black cocktail dress pop-lock-and dropping it
* 2 little people getting their grove on
* Some air force base men who we really think were in the wrong place
* A guy who totally could have passed as santa clause ... should've have introduced to grandma
* A guy who we really think had on grandma's night gown for the fact that it went past his knees
* A guy with a gold grill that threw up all the liquor that was in his stomach and he had his pants down where you could see his underwear.. AND to top it off, he was shaking everyone's (ours not included) hands on his way out.. priceless
* Blueberry .. enough said on that.
* Proof that a white girl can break it down and show them how it's done ..
* Dance moves that would make Micheal Jackson even go "WTF?"

It was just a hilarious and fantastic evening! I'm so glad we ended up going out! However Friday was not kind to my body! Haha! But it's all in being an adult I guess!

So we lost our own Homecoming game. Pretty sad. I guess I was wishing for a repeat of last years score of 73-6. Oh what a game that was!! haha! But the fireworks were great as always and we had a great time though and that's all that really matters! Kalen came into town and that is ALWAYS a blast within itself! :)

Got invited to go to Keystone, Colorado for a week in December after finals for only $150.00. (plus spending money and splitting gas cost) Pretty pumped about that. My parents however, not too pumped cause that means I'm not gonna be home as early as they thought for Christmas break. But this friend that I'm going with will be leaving MSU after this semester and I want us to able to leave on a good foot. Cause I must admit, for a while it wasn't looking too great. So I think it will be fun! :)

So lately I love how little things have really brightened my day. The other night I got a note from a friend and it just made me smile. It made me see that people really do appreciate the things I do. Which in turn makes me smile. A smile for a smile. :)

Well I'm still deciding if I want to go out tonight or not. I guess I should go figure that out! :) Hope everyone else has a great rest of the weekend! :) Much love to all!

Can we please have 3 day weekends?

'Ello loves!

So Mustang football is 3-0! Whoo hoo! I'm pretty pumped! Hope we continue to have a great season!

So this weekend was pretty good. Very mellow and low key which is what I like. Caught up on my homework that I didn't realize how behind I was. Not good. But good that I'm caught up now.

Last week was good also. Just so tiring. Thursdays really kick my butt with classes going from 9:30 to 7pm. But it all pays off since I don't have any Mon-Wed-Fri classes. One great thing from last week is that I got to talk to one of my best friends that graduated in May. First time I've gotten to talk to her since she got married in June. I love talking to her because we always pick up right where we left off. It's like we never skipped a beat. We got all caught up with each other and what's going on in our lives. I love having friends like that! :) Always makes the day better! There is also another positive thing going on right now that I won't blog about just yet but I'm loving where it's going. It made my week so grand!

I was just thinking the other day how much is going on in my life and I'm loving it. :) Whether it be positive or negative, it's still amazing stuff. If someone were to tell me during my Freshman year that all this would be going on now, I would never believe them. But that is what life is all about. Just having fun and experiencing things. They are the things that help you grow and become who you are.

Alright, enough of my sappy life stuff. Haha! I am soooooo excited about Family Weekend this week!! :) Whoo hoo! Can't wait to see my family! I haven't seen them since I believe on 4th of July. No wait, I take that back -- the last session of Spirit Days is the last time I saw them. So the end of July. Wow. I'm just ready for some bonding time with the fam. They haven't been down here in a year and they haven't seen my new apt so we are pumped to have them here! :)

So today has really been a Monday. Ya know how Monday's are never the best days of the week anyways. Well, this is proof of it. Haha! It's not so bad actually. Just some people have definitely brought their 'Monday Attitudes', if ya know what I mean! haha! jk. But seriously.

I always love how the smallest thing can really brighten my day. I got to see my best friend that I haven't seen in like 2 weeks today and it just brightened my day COMPLETELY! Love his hugs. Talking to him today was good. I mean we joked, laughed, cried.. ok, not cry but you get the gist of it. Although we've been through alot of crap in the matter of like a month, he's still my best friend and I wouldn't trade him for anything. Although sometimes I want to run his foot over with his bike. No lie. But he'll always have a piece of my heart. As cheesy as that sounds.

Well that is all for now! Hope everyone has a great day!!! Much love to all! :) :) :) :)

One Step @ a Time..

Hallelujah that this week is OVER! I haven't blogged in a while so be prepared for long one. Prepare the eyes for some readin! :)

Michele's post brought up a good point. TGIF. I remember Friday nights were the epic-ness of television. Sabrina the Teenage Witch; Step by Step; I think even Hanging with Mr. Cooper was on there for a while. No matter what the shows, they were the best. :)

So something happened this week and I don't know whether to think that it's a baby step or I'm just horrible for forgetting. This week made 7 years that Robert has been gone. This is the first year that it did NOT cross my mind or have a crying fit that day. A reason too that I may have forgotten is cause I didn't get the usual phone call from his mom this year. I usually get 2 calls from her a year. I already got the first one and usually I hear from her around this time also. Hope all is alright. I don't know how to figure out if missing the rememberance is a bad thing or good thing. As odd as this sound, everything that happened that week in '01 still effects me so much even now. I miss him. So days more than others. But slowly time has healed my wounds. It's still hard sometimes though. I'll never understand why he did what he did. I still remember talking to his parents the day after and just trying to run through my mind, WHY WHY WHY. I miss you Robert.

9/11 was this week also. I remember where I was at when I first heard. I was in first period Chemistry class with Mrs. Hobson. Our school choir had just been to NYC at the World Trade Center 4 months earlier to the day.. talk about sending chills up our back. We were there in the morning around the same time too. I still have our ticket stub from the tour and our photo from the top of the WTC. I remember when we first walked in you could take your pic in front of this background and then at the end of the tour, you could purchase them. My guy friends were like "nah I don't want to buy that." Well I did and I'm sooo glad we ended up getting it. Still weird that those towers are no longer there. Glad I got the chance to see them in person and go to the top.

The more I think about all this, 2001 was just not my year AT ALL. In May, my cat of 15 years died, (I had him since he was a kitten), June had my surgery, a week later my grandmother died of suicide, in September Robert died of suicide, a few days later 9/11 happened. That was the roughest year ever. I always tell myself that that year is the reason why I am the way I am today.

On happier notes, this week was rush week for the sorority that I wanted to get into. Got to meet all the girls and they are AMAZING! I really got to know them well and realized how much fun they all are. I got to know the girls that are pledging as well and I really wish I could be in that line. They are amazing girls and even though it was just a week of stuff, we really did become such a tight crew! We even went out after our interviews waiting for a calls cause we didn't want to be alone. We were all at Taco Bell with our phones all sitting on the middle of the table just waiting. It was priceless and cute. But due to some circumstances, I wasn't able to pledge with this class. But once Spring comes around, I'M SO THERE! Can't wait to be apart of those girls! :) Which is so weird for me to say because I used to be one of those girls that was like "Sorority just aint my thing. no no no." And now look at me! haha!

Ok, I know us girls have blogged on guys before but seriously, sometimes I really wished I knew what is going on that brain of theirs!! Why do guys stay with something that is not making them happy and pretty much has taken control of them?! And PS when the girl starts tell you who you can and can't hang out with ... UMM SERIOUSLY!! That should be a red flag. I was talking to a friend and he just did not sound 100% and I was like "dude, you don't sound like yourself at all." He then proceeds to tell me "Yeah, I don't feel like myself. I hate the way I feel. I'm not happy cause of all this." So in my mind, people that are experiencing all this usually remove the things that is causing all the pain. This is the perfect time for a Golden Girls' reference. :) People who cause problems are like pieces of shredded wheat caught in dentures. If you leave it there long enough, it causes more problems and causes irritation. However, if you remove it, then the problem goes away and you heal. Random, I know but it makes sense.

So as far as boys, I'm just taking them one at time and one day at a time. Whatever happens happens. Feelings are coming into play for ones I thought would never happen. But I'm just having fun with it all.

...after all, that's what life is all about! :)

When did I get so old??

So this weekend was pretty much uh-mazing! But on Saturday night, I did realize how old I'm getting and how I can't do stuff I used to do. As crazy as that sounds, I seemed to be able not to do the same things I used to could do in high school! haha! Let me explain..

So my gal pal and I went out on Friday night to the Kappa party. Danced a little. Had a beverage or two. Stayed out waaay past my bed time. The night was great.

So Saturday night we went out to the Alpha party. Danced the whole night away. Now this is where I feel old, I was getting my grove on and my legs were like starting to burn. So as I'm dancing with this nice looking fella, I'm thinking "Really? Are my legs really hurting? I remember back in high school dancing all night and still had tons of energy to keep dancing at another party!" Then the next morning, my legs were hurting like someone punched me in my thighs. Ugh. Talk about getting old. Haha! I woke up yesterday going "Holy crap." I'm 22 and get sore after a weekend of dancing... Haha!

But all in all it was a great weekend! :) Got all the party out of my system.. well for now anways! haha! Now it's time to get settled down and get crackin' on some homework cause I have a test this week.. ALREADY! ugh!

Well it's time for my 2 hour break from work! I'll be back to post more! Oh so much more! haha!

*UGH*

Just ugh. I'm feeling MAGENTA right now. Hopefully it's just a 24 hour thing. If ya don't know what magenta is, feel free to go to one of my previous posts and find the Golden Girls reference. :)

So the 3 day weekend was fabulous. Saturday was a little too fabulous actually. But that's a different story for a different time.

I do like starting classes on Tuesday. For one, it feels like a Monday and then wha-la! It's Wednesday! :)

Today was a good day actually. Went non-stop from 11 til about 9ish tonight. I have discovered there are pros and cons about going non-stop. Pro.) You stay busy and the day goes by quicker. Con.) You are dead ass tired at the end of the day. Haha!

One valuable lesson I learned today was: It's all about who you know and then connections you make. It will amaze you on where connections can get you.

So this semester I'm taking a Sociology class on Family Violence. Tonight was the first night that we start the class material. I think I'm really going to like that class. The only bad thing is that it reminds me of the bad memories of being in an abusive relationship. I look back on it now and I wonder what made me stay in that situation at that time. He was not good for me at all, obviously. But in the end, I did learn A LOT not only about myself but about life in general. I know that sounds odd but you don't know until you are in that spot.

So now on to boys. As much as boys sucks sometimes, us girls can't help but heart them. Especially when you get to see them while you are at work. ;) It's pretty much the highlight of the afternoon. I had an interesting conversation with my dad today that consisted of this:

Me: "So o.m.g dad! I was talking to Pete the other day and he says that [anonymous boy ;)] knows that I like him! Well that he has an idea anyways."

Dad: "Umm, bran? Isn't that kind of the point of liking someone? That they find out so you know where it might or might not go?"

Me: "Good point. But still! He's not suppose to know!"

Hilarious conversation. Just had to be there. :) But yes, this particular fella knows that I like him. I'm not saying it's a bad thing at all. Just a tad unexpected. Although I think that he enjoys messing with me. Which is fine. Haha! But he is such a sweet guy and has this smile that makes ya go "ahhhhhhh... " and makes butterflies and rainbows appear. Well, not that intense but you get the drift. Haha! He looks like he would know how to treat a girl and take care of her. Like let's say I'm his GF and I go up to him and give him a hug and be like "ugh. Today was a bad day dear." and he being like "I'm sorry honey. Would you like me to make you dinner? Or how about a back massage?" But then again, all [well most] of the guys on the S.U.Crew look like they would be that way. Haha! Nothing wrong with that. :)

Alright, enough about them boys. :) Hehe! Oh P.S -- boys that stay with something that they know is not good for them, needs an intervention and needs to be shown that there is something so much better for them out there.

I'm pretty pumped about the end of this week and then weekend. Alot going on and just alot of fun to be had. Although I feel like the "Spirit Days Mom" to some of these girls! haha! I'm like "Yeah you can party it up with us but you ride with me cause I know how these guys are." Haha!

First football game is this weekend!!! WHOO HOO! Can't wait! LOVE football season!!! :)

GO MUSTANGS!

Well hope the remainder of this week goes as awesome as last week! Hope everyone's week goes just as well!! Much love!!

P.S Michele -- glad you didn't die on the ladder today. I would have been sad. I would have bought you flowers. Maybe. :) Haha!!! J/K I *heart* you!