Goodbye 2008...

So to go along with my last post, here are some memories that made this year FABULOUS:

*First off, realizing that things will change no matter how bad or hard you want them to stay the same
*Realizing that some people are NOT meant to be together, no matter how much you think they should
*Finding out who my true friends are -- thank you for sticking through with me!!
*Boys suck. Well, sometimes. :] Haha!
*No matter how much a boy make break my heart, I've got my awesome gal pals to bring me back up.
*Making new friends!! SHAHALA! :], my Spirit Days girls, classmates, etc...
*Playing momma to my Spirit Days girls .. but sometimes they need to learn those lessons on their own ..
*Going to more parties in the Fall [gotta love those Alpha men!] *LoL*
*Seeing my awesome roomie graduating in May .. and also one of my best friends. May graduation was saaaad and happy all at the same time!
*Decemeber graduation was even more sad! As my roomie would put it "All your chocolate men are leaving you!!" <-- Thanks Katelyn! Haha!
*Doing things that I NEVER thought I'd do ..
*Still sticking with my major .. Even though I didn't get into the program the first time, I'm keeping my fingers crossed for next year!
*Realzing that I am STILL in school -- but when I do graduate, I will be with 2 bachelors and an associates! Take that! :]
*Spirit Days. Enough said there! :] Oh the memories from the summer. Set up crew - students hitting on me while signing up at registration - Bon qui qui - Heeeeey. Just checkin on ya. - Waldo & Waldo's Brother - the "fake" boyfriends to keep me away from one guy, who I later ended up dating for a bit! - the UH-MAZING skit put on by our crew!!! Just flat out amazing summer!!
*Sometimes that crush can turn into a new flame. Experiencing that right now, and LOVING it.
*Seeing one of my best guy friends cross into his Frat. LOVE YOU ANTUAN & ABI! A-phi-A
*Meeting some awesome girls that I hope one day I can call my sisters! No worries my KDChi girls -- I'll be there in the Fall '09!!! [Never thought I'd want into a sorority so much!]
*Bridges did burn with old friends but new one have been built with some amazing ones!!
*3 hours of car tagging with 2 amazing loves of my life! Priceless. Shahala: one day we will get your car! No worries.
*Even though life can feel like a roller coaster - just hang on for the ride! :]
*The nights of having too much to drink and confessing things to a certain someone .. thank goodness for him being such a great friend!
*Mucho-Gusto-Cosmo-Cuddle time with an awesome friend .. who is a guy! :]
*Cooking for friends!
*Random night at Toby's with Abi and Pete .. sooo much fun!
*MSU Football games when Kalen would come to visit!!
*Homecoming
*Bonfire!! And the Alpha after-party with Fransico... oh blueberry, you make our lives fun!
*All the memories made in #421! Oh lord, if walls could talk.
*Chocolate river .. enough said. :]
*Fort Worth Zoo with Michele, Luke & Shahala. Soo much fun! "But mom - we want to see the lions!!" "You've just been pished!"
*Going to AlphaPollo with Katelyn and having such an eventful night! Guys qawking at us on the steps, McAlisters, random guy coming into the apt, hanging out the windom [literally], talking to guys while hangin out the window, becoming friends with the dancing drunk guy, goin to the After-Party with Antuan, then staying up til 5 in the morning. Then wakin up the following morning to flowers on my doorstep from Eddie. :]
*Surprise Valentines Day dinner from Eddie.
*Climbing into the school fountain .. hehe! :] We have pics to prove it.
*Going to the fair with Katelyn and acting like a kid again ... FUNNEL CAKES!!
*Traffic cones ... Enough said. :]
*Tiff getting into the Dental Hygeine program and celebrating . "I feel like Jesus!" <-- some people didn't find that so funny! Haha!
*Going to Krank It with Shahala and Michele and making new friends .. .haha! Those guys loved their pics being taken! haha!
*Celebrating my 22nd with Cassie and Cole @ Fast Eddie's playing pool and throwing back a few ..
*Painting the CCC with Franny and Michele ...
*Getting obsessed with Twilight and LOVING the movie! <-- thanks Shahala for that one! ha!
*Baking cookies for my frat guys who I love ... now, that's turn into a nice little side money for me! ha!
*Random road trips with friends ...
*Thinkin you know your friends and then you learn more and more about them everday.
*Having the most AMAZING roomie ever!!
*Stayin up 4 straight days working on a research paper -- with my awesome roomie! haha!
*Trying to brighten people's days with my laughter and trying to look at the positive side of things! [Not always the easiest! Haha!]
*Laughing so many times, at so many things, til tears come pouring down!
*Soo many memories that I would never trade for anything.
*Realizing that sometimes things get hard in life and we don't know why -- but as long as we have faith, we can get through anything with that and a SMILE! :]

I'm sure there are many, many, many more but these are the ones that stick out most in my mind. 2008 has been a great year and hopefully 2009 will be just as great, if not better!! Thank you to all my friends for sticking with me through my craziness! LOVE YOU ALL! :]

Hope everyone else had a great 2008 and wish you the best for 2009! Merry Christmas everyone and see you next year! :] Happy New Year as well! ]

Much love,
Bran

Oh what a year you have been 2008...

So I can't believe this year has finally come to an end. So many things have happened this year that I thought NEVER would and actually they have been nice little surprises. I did discover who my true friends were this year and I wouldn't trade them for anything. I'm glad that this year is wrapping up because I have a feeling that next year will be even better! :) :)

More will come soon -- however it's that time of the year that you just sit back and think what a great year it's been and how lucky we are with some things. Even though at times we wonder what the heck is going on with our lives, there are still those small things that make you smile and thankful that life is so unpredictable. :) :)

Too be continued...

Soo..umm.yeah..

Lately my life has been one curveball after another. It's like I'm living a secret life that no one knows about. It's exciting, don't get me wrong it's just that I would never imagine my life to be the way it is going now...just craziness. But good craziness.

Thanksgiving break was so nice. It was great to be home and just chill with the family and eat some uh-mazing food!!! Can't wait til Christmas now!!

So graduation is next Saturday and I have mixed feelings about seeing some of my great friends leave here. I'm happy they are getting out and starting their own lives but at the same time I'm going to miss them sooo much! It's going to be weird not seeing them around all the time. Or being up to just pick up the phone and be like "Hey come over.. I need a hug." But that just means that the next two weeks are gonna mean alot with those friends. I know that we'll stay in touch after they leave but you know how often people say that. I mean, heck, we all said that when we graduated from high school. And I barely keep in touch with them. But I know that I'll stay in touch with these friends. They mean alot to me and we've been through too much to just end it after they leave...

Can't believe this semester is almost over. Once again, Fall semester has proved to be another interesting semester. So much has happened and gone on that it has really kept thing interesting. I can't wait til next semester though. Spring '09 is going to be GREAT! :) I can just feel it.

Why do people act the way they do?? I hate how people think I won't find certain things out. It's very annoying and it's a quick way to burn a bridge with me. Random outburst, I know... But some people know what I'm talking about ...

Well I guess that's all going on for now! Hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving break!! :) Much love to you all! :) :)

Life's little curveballs...

So today a few wonderful surprises were thrown at me and just let me tell you -- WHAT A DAY!! I think it's God's way of telling us that life is not always what you seem and it just reminds us that life is full of these little curveballs.

I.love.it. :)

I'll always be a country girl...

Around this time last year, my family and I were in Las Vegas celebrating the PBR (Professional Bull Riding, for you folks that don't know what it means... LoL) World Finals and enjoying a nice family vacation. Well we weren't able to make it back this year but that didn't stop us from watching it on TV and still celebrating. It's like I told Michele.. it's our family's version of the NFL Superbowl. We were clapping and yelling at the TV since one of our fave riders ended up winning the World Title. But it was sad too cause 2 of my fave riders ended up retiring this year. :( But we are for sure going again next year and plus who doesn't want to go to Vegas?? LOOOVE that place! And it's that one time of the year when country folks take over that place! Haha!

So anyhoo -- after we watched the finals and what not, I realized that I will always be a country girl and that I see myself settling down with a cowboy. I mean yeah, I'm going through my 'chocolate' phase right now and just having fun but when it comes down to it, I really see myself that way that I've always talked about. Living on a ranch, taking care of cattle, and settling down with my cowboy. As long as I can remember that's all I've ever been around. With daddy rodeoing and roping all the time, all our family friends were either ropers or cowboys. Plus being on my granddaddy's ranch and going to the cattle auctions when I was younger, I got used to that way of life. I can remember being just a little girl and riding a horse all by myself. And then doing the rodeos as I got older. I miss those days actually. Nothing is better than traveling from place to place and doing what you love. Who knows, I might get back into it after college. My lifelong goal (after spending some time in Boston and NYC of course!) is to buy some land in Texas, build my house and my parents house (I told them they could live on my land with me!) and just have my own ranch. Nothing would be better ...

So as much as my parents get freaked out by my 'phases of boys', they always tell me that I'll end up with a cowboy. Heck, there were a couple of guys that I met last year in Vegas @ the World Finals. Who knows, I might meet me one at next year's World Finals.

So like they say: You can take the girl out of the country but ya can't take the country out of the girl! :) [And that's alright by me... ]

So something to think about ...

So I got this email from my momma this morning and I must say that this poem is pretty much amazing... ENJOY.

I was shocked, confused, and bewildered as I entered Heaven's door
Not by the beauty of it all nor the lights or its decor.
But it was the folks in Heaven who made me sputter and gasp--
The thieves, the liars, the sinners , the alcoholics and the trash.
There stood the kid from seventh grade who swiped my lunch money twice.
Next to him was my old neighbor who never said anything nice.
Herb, who I always thought was rotting away in hell,
was sitting pretty on cloud nine looking incredibly well.
I nudged Jesus, 'What's the deal? I would love to hear your take.
How'd all these sinners get up here? God must've made a mistake.
'And why's everyone so quiet so somber - give me a clue.'
'Hush, child,' He said, 'they're all in shock. No one thought they'd be seeing you.'

Anyhoo, thought people wound enjoy reading that.

Today has been really good actually. I think I'm getting sick though which really really sucks monkey toes. I'm trying to stay healthy for this weekend. Who knows? We'll see...

Well guess I better get back to work. Hope everyone has great day! :) Much love!

When you come to a fork in the road ...

.. it sucks!!!

I'm faced with a dilemma [well, it would be classified as a dilemma in a girl's world anyways .. LoL]

But both forks lead to great things. That is what makes it harder for me. I could be just over thinking everything that is involved with this but I just don't know what to do. But then again, I may not have to choice anything. It may work itself out ...

Oh the difference in people...

So this idea for a blog just popped into my mind... It amazes me how different people can be and how different people treat people.. Let me explain:

So there is this guy that I'm kinda "seeing" [we'll call him 'J'] and by 'kinda seeing' I mean we are getting to know each other, we hang out, have fun, ya know - the usual. We haven't set a title to us, which I like cause that means we aren't rushing into anything. We just take it a day at a time and we are both cool with that. Like I said in my previous post, if we wanna hang out with each other, we just text and sometimes we each get the 'i'm busy doing homework', 'maybe later', 'i'm tired' and we're cool with that and we move on to something else. So moving on - in the short amount of time this semester that we've gotten to know each other, he is the most respectful and kind guy that I've gotten close to in a loooong time. He's left me notes when he's came over and that just warms my heart. This past weekend he borrowed my car [i know what some of ya'll are thinking, however, we did battle it out before i told him yes.. haha!] to go home to see his momma and daddy. When he got back today, he did the 3 following things that just warmed my heart even MORE and put him at the top of my list:

1. Told me THANK YOU, that he appreciated me & gave me a hug [& meant it all!]
2. Filled my car up with gas [when he took the car, it only had 1/4th of a tank!]
3. Brought me breakfast [he woke me up at like 11 this morning]

Then he proceeded to make me laugh with some funny stories from the weekend and anyone that knows me knows that if you can make laugh, you've won me over! haha! :) I think what just really wins me over also is that fact that we aren't even boyfriend/girlfriend. The more I get to know him the more and more I'm starting to see the true gentleman he is and girls, that is not easy to find ... especially in Wichita Falls.

Ok - so let me get back to the point of this post. One of my best friends has been going with her guy [we'll call 'ungrateful'] for almost a year now and he is complete A$$. He doesn't appreciate her at all and she dotes on him so much. She is such a great girlfriend and he doesn't do jack-$hit to show his appreciation for her. He fails to even recognize that they are even dating and I always get the vibe that he is trying to 'hide' her from friends and family. It just sickens me sometimes because she is such a great person with such a kind heart. And I got to thinking tonight, of all the things 'J' has done for me in the short amount of time we've been hanging out, 'ungrateful' hasn't done any of them. No notes, no breakfast, no THANK YOUs, etc...

So the point being: it baffles me how a dude that isn't even my boyfriend can treat me sooo much nicer than a dude treats his girl of a year. It just always amazes me how different people can really be sometimes ...

A whole different day ...

Soooo I'm feeling ALOT better now! Thank goodness for that. :) I put all my friends through so much hell last week and I hated it. I did not like the person I was becoming at all! But with one quick call to the doctor, we got it all switched out and all is well now!

Today my brain is mush. I had a test and a midterm today and I'm just soooo tired. But hey, that's college life. And I have a paper due on Thursday that I should prolly get finished up. Next week is gonna be a killer as well. The more I look at it, every week till Thanksgiving break is gonna be a killer! Oh well - I'll get through it! Have no choice .. haha!

This weekend was a good one. Saturday was pretty much dedicated to studying my brains out. Didn't step outside once at all. Then on Sunday is when the real adventure began! My two wonderful friends Luke and Katelyn took me to their hometown of Sachse. Sooo much fun! It was the break that I needed! Left at 8:30 in the morning and jammed out to some old school stuff. *couch*NSYNC*cough*Backstreet Boys* oh I think some 98 degrees was thrown in there somewhere too! It was so much fun and I love them 2 like a brother and sister so it was the perfect way to spend a Sunday! :) We jammed on the way back to some good 'ole country music. Well let me re-phrase that... Luke and I sang our little hearts out while Katelyn looked at us like we were losing our minds. haha! Them two really helped me get out of my funk too. I just heart them so much! :)

So far this week is going good. Just those tests have taken a toll on me. I'm just ready for this weekend because I MIGHT be going home so dad can take a look at my car. It'll be a nice break for a while.

So let's get on to the REAL reason people read this blog: the boy situation is going good. I love how we work too. There is no pressure to call or text or anything. If we want to hang out, we'll just text each other and sometimes we get the response of "i'm studying" or "maybe tomorrow" and we're cool with that. We're just having fun getting to know each other and I like how relaxed we both are. And we don't have a title either, which I like. We have talked about it though. So we'll see on that.

Still haven't decided if I'm gonna go snowboarding with my best guy friend yet. I really want to and then I don't. There are just so many factors that are good and then so many factors that are bad. *sigh* I have until the 31st to make up my mind. What should I do guys?!?!

Well I better get back to work! Thought I'd update ya'll [well by request!! haha!] on what is going on and that I'm doing ALOT better!!

Hope everyone is having a great week so far! Much love to ya'll! :)

For once...

...I wish people would find out what's going on with me before a judgment is made on me. I understand I haven't been my normal upbeat self this week due to this new medicine, however, it's not like I'm doing it on purpose...

Oh the lovely adventures that make our lives..

Soo um wow it's been a while since I've blogged!! Let's get reacquainted shall we...

Oh where do I begin?! Let's see... went home for the WT -vs- MSU game. Sooo good to be home! LOVED IT! I love how they start the parade with running the buffalo down the street to kick it off! And as always, the fair food was UH-MAZING! :) Corndogs and funnel cakes, ya can't go wrong!! And to top it off I go to see two of my old high school friends who I haven't seen since graduation!!! Pretty much awesome. But then I did realize how much we all have changed. But it was good to see them though.

However, the game on the other hand was just not that great. First off, it rained and delayed the game for 45 minutes. Thank goodness for thinking ahead and taking umbrellas. It was fun though cause some people embraced it, while others hated it. But my family and I had a blast with it! One thing I like about WT games is that they play some awesome music before the game and it's stuff that you can really jam out to. Great stuff. Also, the buffalo took a dump on the field before the game started. Priceless and hilarious all at the same time. MSU didn't win the game. :( Heck, I don't even think the team showed up. jk. WT is just an amazing team though and they did a great job. We ended up leaving after 3rd quarter cause of my hell-acious headache. It was such a horrible headache that ended with me sleeping for like 12 hours straight.

But it was a great weekend at home. Nice 3 day one. Only sucky thing was that I had to go to the doctor. No bueno. But now at least I know what's wrong with me. Haha! And it involved me and my mother having a bonding experience for sure!!! Haha! But it was a great time at home. Wish I could go home more often but that's just how the cookie crumbles. <-- yes, totally just took that from "Bruce Almighty."

Although that weekend could NOT have landed on a WORSE weekend. This week I had 2 tests and a quiz and plus with it being HOMECOMING week full of madness, I needed that weekend to stay here and get things ready. But it all worked out in the end.

So Homecoming is this week. Always LOVE the week!! One thing that saddens my heart is that this is my first year that I didn't compete in the Banner competition. 2 out of the 3 times I've done it for UPB, we've placed. And I still have all those banners too chilling in my closet at home. I love them though. So much work goes into them and you just feel so proud to see it hanging in the atrium. Bonfire was last night. Sooo much fun! Thursday was just an awesome day in general. Bonfire and torchlight is just a blast anyways. My favorite part is at first we are all crowded around the bonfire and then as soon as they light it, WHOOSH, we all back up!! It's like we can't back up fast enough! haha! And more fun came afterwards when we went out to the Alpha party ... Oh lordy lordy!

First off, managed to rope in Franny to go with me. Sooo glad I did! It was quite the experience for him! Didn't get out there til midnight (which is usually my bed time.) got up to the door and showed our ID and went up to pay cover charge. Let's just say it's awesome to have connections and not pay full price. We get in and it was nice cause it wasn't too crowded. There was just enough people to where you could walk through and not be afraid to grab someone's ass or chest. Although some people like that. However I am not one of those. So we get in, get some drinks (a lovely bacardi and coke for I), find AnTuan and begin the fun. And let me tell ya, we DID have fun. Let me ask something: Do people REALLY look at themselves in the mirror before they leave their place and go "Damn! I'm hot stuff!" Cause I really think all those people were in that joint that night. I mean, I'm no Cindy Crawford or anything but I try to look pretty nice when I go out. But holy moses... Let me just make a list for you of what our eyes saw that evening:

* A 60 year old white lady with a black cocktail dress pop-lock-and dropping it
* 2 little people getting their grove on
* Some air force base men who we really think were in the wrong place
* A guy who totally could have passed as santa clause ... should've have introduced to grandma
* A guy who we really think had on grandma's night gown for the fact that it went past his knees
* A guy with a gold grill that threw up all the liquor that was in his stomach and he had his pants down where you could see his underwear.. AND to top it off, he was shaking everyone's (ours not included) hands on his way out.. priceless
* Blueberry .. enough said on that.
* Proof that a white girl can break it down and show them how it's done ..
* Dance moves that would make Micheal Jackson even go "WTF?"

It was just a hilarious and fantastic evening! I'm so glad we ended up going out! However Friday was not kind to my body! Haha! But it's all in being an adult I guess!

So we lost our own Homecoming game. Pretty sad. I guess I was wishing for a repeat of last years score of 73-6. Oh what a game that was!! haha! But the fireworks were great as always and we had a great time though and that's all that really matters! Kalen came into town and that is ALWAYS a blast within itself! :)

Got invited to go to Keystone, Colorado for a week in December after finals for only $150.00. (plus spending money and splitting gas cost) Pretty pumped about that. My parents however, not too pumped cause that means I'm not gonna be home as early as they thought for Christmas break. But this friend that I'm going with will be leaving MSU after this semester and I want us to able to leave on a good foot. Cause I must admit, for a while it wasn't looking too great. So I think it will be fun! :)

So lately I love how little things have really brightened my day. The other night I got a note from a friend and it just made me smile. It made me see that people really do appreciate the things I do. Which in turn makes me smile. A smile for a smile. :)

Well I'm still deciding if I want to go out tonight or not. I guess I should go figure that out! :) Hope everyone else has a great rest of the weekend! :) Much love to all!

Can we please have 3 day weekends?

'Ello loves!

So Mustang football is 3-0! Whoo hoo! I'm pretty pumped! Hope we continue to have a great season!

So this weekend was pretty good. Very mellow and low key which is what I like. Caught up on my homework that I didn't realize how behind I was. Not good. But good that I'm caught up now.

Last week was good also. Just so tiring. Thursdays really kick my butt with classes going from 9:30 to 7pm. But it all pays off since I don't have any Mon-Wed-Fri classes. One great thing from last week is that I got to talk to one of my best friends that graduated in May. First time I've gotten to talk to her since she got married in June. I love talking to her because we always pick up right where we left off. It's like we never skipped a beat. We got all caught up with each other and what's going on in our lives. I love having friends like that! :) Always makes the day better! There is also another positive thing going on right now that I won't blog about just yet but I'm loving where it's going. It made my week so grand!

I was just thinking the other day how much is going on in my life and I'm loving it. :) Whether it be positive or negative, it's still amazing stuff. If someone were to tell me during my Freshman year that all this would be going on now, I would never believe them. But that is what life is all about. Just having fun and experiencing things. They are the things that help you grow and become who you are.

Alright, enough of my sappy life stuff. Haha! I am soooooo excited about Family Weekend this week!! :) Whoo hoo! Can't wait to see my family! I haven't seen them since I believe on 4th of July. No wait, I take that back -- the last session of Spirit Days is the last time I saw them. So the end of July. Wow. I'm just ready for some bonding time with the fam. They haven't been down here in a year and they haven't seen my new apt so we are pumped to have them here! :)

So today has really been a Monday. Ya know how Monday's are never the best days of the week anyways. Well, this is proof of it. Haha! It's not so bad actually. Just some people have definitely brought their 'Monday Attitudes', if ya know what I mean! haha! jk. But seriously.

I always love how the smallest thing can really brighten my day. I got to see my best friend that I haven't seen in like 2 weeks today and it just brightened my day COMPLETELY! Love his hugs. Talking to him today was good. I mean we joked, laughed, cried.. ok, not cry but you get the gist of it. Although we've been through alot of crap in the matter of like a month, he's still my best friend and I wouldn't trade him for anything. Although sometimes I want to run his foot over with his bike. No lie. But he'll always have a piece of my heart. As cheesy as that sounds.

Well that is all for now! Hope everyone has a great day!!! Much love to all! :) :) :) :)

One Step @ a Time..

Hallelujah that this week is OVER! I haven't blogged in a while so be prepared for long one. Prepare the eyes for some readin! :)

Michele's post brought up a good point. TGIF. I remember Friday nights were the epic-ness of television. Sabrina the Teenage Witch; Step by Step; I think even Hanging with Mr. Cooper was on there for a while. No matter what the shows, they were the best. :)

So something happened this week and I don't know whether to think that it's a baby step or I'm just horrible for forgetting. This week made 7 years that Robert has been gone. This is the first year that it did NOT cross my mind or have a crying fit that day. A reason too that I may have forgotten is cause I didn't get the usual phone call from his mom this year. I usually get 2 calls from her a year. I already got the first one and usually I hear from her around this time also. Hope all is alright. I don't know how to figure out if missing the rememberance is a bad thing or good thing. As odd as this sound, everything that happened that week in '01 still effects me so much even now. I miss him. So days more than others. But slowly time has healed my wounds. It's still hard sometimes though. I'll never understand why he did what he did. I still remember talking to his parents the day after and just trying to run through my mind, WHY WHY WHY. I miss you Robert.

9/11 was this week also. I remember where I was at when I first heard. I was in first period Chemistry class with Mrs. Hobson. Our school choir had just been to NYC at the World Trade Center 4 months earlier to the day.. talk about sending chills up our back. We were there in the morning around the same time too. I still have our ticket stub from the tour and our photo from the top of the WTC. I remember when we first walked in you could take your pic in front of this background and then at the end of the tour, you could purchase them. My guy friends were like "nah I don't want to buy that." Well I did and I'm sooo glad we ended up getting it. Still weird that those towers are no longer there. Glad I got the chance to see them in person and go to the top.

The more I think about all this, 2001 was just not my year AT ALL. In May, my cat of 15 years died, (I had him since he was a kitten), June had my surgery, a week later my grandmother died of suicide, in September Robert died of suicide, a few days later 9/11 happened. That was the roughest year ever. I always tell myself that that year is the reason why I am the way I am today.

On happier notes, this week was rush week for the sorority that I wanted to get into. Got to meet all the girls and they are AMAZING! I really got to know them well and realized how much fun they all are. I got to know the girls that are pledging as well and I really wish I could be in that line. They are amazing girls and even though it was just a week of stuff, we really did become such a tight crew! We even went out after our interviews waiting for a calls cause we didn't want to be alone. We were all at Taco Bell with our phones all sitting on the middle of the table just waiting. It was priceless and cute. But due to some circumstances, I wasn't able to pledge with this class. But once Spring comes around, I'M SO THERE! Can't wait to be apart of those girls! :) Which is so weird for me to say because I used to be one of those girls that was like "Sorority just aint my thing. no no no." And now look at me! haha!

Ok, I know us girls have blogged on guys before but seriously, sometimes I really wished I knew what is going on that brain of theirs!! Why do guys stay with something that is not making them happy and pretty much has taken control of them?! And PS when the girl starts tell you who you can and can't hang out with ... UMM SERIOUSLY!! That should be a red flag. I was talking to a friend and he just did not sound 100% and I was like "dude, you don't sound like yourself at all." He then proceeds to tell me "Yeah, I don't feel like myself. I hate the way I feel. I'm not happy cause of all this." So in my mind, people that are experiencing all this usually remove the things that is causing all the pain. This is the perfect time for a Golden Girls' reference. :) People who cause problems are like pieces of shredded wheat caught in dentures. If you leave it there long enough, it causes more problems and causes irritation. However, if you remove it, then the problem goes away and you heal. Random, I know but it makes sense.

So as far as boys, I'm just taking them one at time and one day at a time. Whatever happens happens. Feelings are coming into play for ones I thought would never happen. But I'm just having fun with it all.

...after all, that's what life is all about! :)

When did I get so old??

So this weekend was pretty much uh-mazing! But on Saturday night, I did realize how old I'm getting and how I can't do stuff I used to do. As crazy as that sounds, I seemed to be able not to do the same things I used to could do in high school! haha! Let me explain..

So my gal pal and I went out on Friday night to the Kappa party. Danced a little. Had a beverage or two. Stayed out waaay past my bed time. The night was great.

So Saturday night we went out to the Alpha party. Danced the whole night away. Now this is where I feel old, I was getting my grove on and my legs were like starting to burn. So as I'm dancing with this nice looking fella, I'm thinking "Really? Are my legs really hurting? I remember back in high school dancing all night and still had tons of energy to keep dancing at another party!" Then the next morning, my legs were hurting like someone punched me in my thighs. Ugh. Talk about getting old. Haha! I woke up yesterday going "Holy crap." I'm 22 and get sore after a weekend of dancing... Haha!

But all in all it was a great weekend! :) Got all the party out of my system.. well for now anways! haha! Now it's time to get settled down and get crackin' on some homework cause I have a test this week.. ALREADY! ugh!

Well it's time for my 2 hour break from work! I'll be back to post more! Oh so much more! haha!

*UGH*

Just ugh. I'm feeling MAGENTA right now. Hopefully it's just a 24 hour thing. If ya don't know what magenta is, feel free to go to one of my previous posts and find the Golden Girls reference. :)

So the 3 day weekend was fabulous. Saturday was a little too fabulous actually. But that's a different story for a different time.

I do like starting classes on Tuesday. For one, it feels like a Monday and then wha-la! It's Wednesday! :)

Today was a good day actually. Went non-stop from 11 til about 9ish tonight. I have discovered there are pros and cons about going non-stop. Pro.) You stay busy and the day goes by quicker. Con.) You are dead ass tired at the end of the day. Haha!

One valuable lesson I learned today was: It's all about who you know and then connections you make. It will amaze you on where connections can get you.

So this semester I'm taking a Sociology class on Family Violence. Tonight was the first night that we start the class material. I think I'm really going to like that class. The only bad thing is that it reminds me of the bad memories of being in an abusive relationship. I look back on it now and I wonder what made me stay in that situation at that time. He was not good for me at all, obviously. But in the end, I did learn A LOT not only about myself but about life in general. I know that sounds odd but you don't know until you are in that spot.

So now on to boys. As much as boys sucks sometimes, us girls can't help but heart them. Especially when you get to see them while you are at work. ;) It's pretty much the highlight of the afternoon. I had an interesting conversation with my dad today that consisted of this:

Me: "So o.m.g dad! I was talking to Pete the other day and he says that [anonymous boy ;)] knows that I like him! Well that he has an idea anyways."

Dad: "Umm, bran? Isn't that kind of the point of liking someone? That they find out so you know where it might or might not go?"

Me: "Good point. But still! He's not suppose to know!"

Hilarious conversation. Just had to be there. :) But yes, this particular fella knows that I like him. I'm not saying it's a bad thing at all. Just a tad unexpected. Although I think that he enjoys messing with me. Which is fine. Haha! But he is such a sweet guy and has this smile that makes ya go "ahhhhhhh... " and makes butterflies and rainbows appear. Well, not that intense but you get the drift. Haha! He looks like he would know how to treat a girl and take care of her. Like let's say I'm his GF and I go up to him and give him a hug and be like "ugh. Today was a bad day dear." and he being like "I'm sorry honey. Would you like me to make you dinner? Or how about a back massage?" But then again, all [well most] of the guys on the S.U.Crew look like they would be that way. Haha! Nothing wrong with that. :)

Alright, enough about them boys. :) Hehe! Oh P.S -- boys that stay with something that they know is not good for them, needs an intervention and needs to be shown that there is something so much better for them out there.

I'm pretty pumped about the end of this week and then weekend. Alot going on and just alot of fun to be had. Although I feel like the "Spirit Days Mom" to some of these girls! haha! I'm like "Yeah you can party it up with us but you ride with me cause I know how these guys are." Haha!

First football game is this weekend!!! WHOO HOO! Can't wait! LOVE football season!!! :)

GO MUSTANGS!

Well hope the remainder of this week goes as awesome as last week! Hope everyone's week goes just as well!! Much love!!

P.S Michele -- glad you didn't die on the ladder today. I would have been sad. I would have bought you flowers. Maybe. :) Haha!!! J/K I *heart* you!

So the door FINALLY closes ...

.... on something that should have been closed alooong time ago. Found out tonight that a certain someone was in a relationship this whole time and yet he kept telling me they were "just friends." I will admit that when I first heard the word "girlfriend", wait, let me re-phrase that -- when I read it in form of text message on my roommates phone [he wasn't replying to any of my messages], I admit that it did burn a bit. I did have a moment where I stopped and just wanted to let a tear fall down my cheek. *cue sad music*

But the more I thought about it, it's finally the closure that I needed. To realize "Ok - it's done with. Now I can move on to other things." What I don't understand is the fact that it was kept a secret and he would never tell me anything about it. Although I do understand that he doesn't have to fill me in either. I get that. But don't lie to me. And don't hide stuff like that from me and then get ticked off at me for talking to someone else that you don't approve of. Like really. Just be straight forward and be like "So I'm in a relationship now". Fine. I get that. Save me that heartache and wondering if we will always be in that gray area. I now know that your sweet lovey dovey comments mean nothing. I now know that you are treating me the EXACT same way you treat other girls you are trying to stop talking to. I now know that I don't have to keep wondering if one day you will realize how good we are for one another. And finally, I now know that I don't have to keep impressing you.

As upset as that all made me, I keep reminding myself that I don't regret something that once made me smile. We have been through alot together. We both know things that no one else knows. Having a friendship like that is awesome until you start burning that bridge one plank at a time. Yes you can rebuild that bridge but that fire will always be there in the background. So although all this stuff with him lasted a whole year, I really honestly wouldn't take it back for anything. I grew so much this past year with everything that happened with him. And same for him as well. I just hope that we will always have that tight friendship....

That brings me to another cycle that I have gotten used to and I hate it. Haha! EVERY guy that I have gotten close to -- to the point of dating and being together -- they either get back with their ex or all of a sudden they get a girlfriend out of the blue. Usually to some girl that I had no idea was even attracted to that person! Or that person has been taken from me. R.W passed away... D.S got back with his ex ... E.D is with his new girlfriend ... L.S got back with his ex ... C.P got a new girlfriend ... *UGH* It's like the cycle never stops. And it does get frustrating sometimes because it's like "What am I doing wrong?" But then God throws a pebble at me and is like "Listen chica, I know what I'm doing whether you like it or not." :)

So for now, I'm just having fun and not getting my hopes up too high with these other fellas I got my eye on and that I'm getting to know. Life is just about having fun and making the best of it. :)

Now that I'm done venting about boys and whatnot .. haha! First week of classes are over with for me. Love just having Tuesday/Thursday classes. Although, Thursdays are going to kick my butt. Class straight from 9:30 to 7pm with maybe an hour break in there somewhere. Oh well. I like being busy though. I've been going non-stop literally since Monday. My body is like "I want sleep!" :)

Please keep me in your prayers. I'm making some personal choices right now that have me in conflict and it just really sucks because they are issues that I've never really thought about or dealt with for a looooong time and I hate that it's coming back up again. I thought after 7 years it would end... apparently not.

Hope everyone has a great 3 days weekend!! :)

Much love!

Back to School .. Back to School

Oh how I heart Billy Madison...

So tomorrow is the first day of classes. I remember back in the day before college when the first day of school was a BIG deal. Having the perfect outfit picked out laying by the closet, knowing how my hair was going to look, wondering if anyone else was going to have the same new fashion, seeing friends again, wondering who was with who or who BROKE UP with who, etc. The first day of senior year was the most memorable. Feeling like the superiors. Pulling into our assigned parking spots right as the bell rang and just walking in with nothing because we knew that year was going to be the easiest as far as we were concerned.

I also remember the first day further back. Elementary days. The new lunch box with our favorite characters on the front. Or if we were cool enough, we got to eat in the cafeteria and BUY our lunch. Everything was new. Clothes, spirals, pens, crayons, water colors, rulers, glue ... *sigh* the days that use to be so simple. Sometimes I wish we could go back to those days but then I realize how much I love the present and wouldn't change it for anything. :)

Like I've said before, I have a feeling this semester will be FAN-TAB-ULOUS! :) Just this past 2 weeks alone have been great! So if that's a clue -- then that is awesome!!! I have recently realized that I have the most amazing "family" here at MSU. I wouldn't trade any of them for anything in the world. I love being there for them and I know that if I ever needed anything that they are there for me as well. It's always nice to get that text or call asking if I am alright from something that I completely forgot had happened earlier in the day. Can't ask for anything better than that. They are the ones that keep me in smiles and remind me why life is so great!

I have found a new song that I have fallen in love with. Jordin Sparks "One Step @ a Time". Very catchy beat and really speaks to me right now. I love songs like that.

Another thing that makes me smile and chuckle is PostSecret. If you have not seen them, you are missing out. They make you see that sometimes people think the EXACT same way you do! haha! Scary thought though. Haha! :)

Well hope everyone else has a great first day of classes. If you aren't in school, have a great Monday! :)

Much love to all!!! :)

Ya know how they say things happen for a reason?

Life is just crazy sometimes with its chain of events. :) I'll emphasis in a bit.

Sooo glad it's the weekend! :) It's been nice to not set an alarm and just SLEEP! Katelyn moved some of her stuff in this morning! Can't wait til she moves ALL the way in! :) It's pretty much going to rock. But other than that, it's been nice to just chill. I'm house sitting for a friend so I went and played with her animals for bit. Did some laundry. Did some cleaning and more hanging of pictures in the apt. The living room is now filled with boxes again until Katelyn can get her key to the bedroom on Tuesday. So for now it's all in the living room and kitchen! HA!

So one more week until school starts! CRAZY! But I'm ready to get things started.

I think it's funny when you catch people in lies. It's even funnier when they find out certain things that they though you didn't know about. It's like they don't know people will tell me these things or that I won't find out MYSELF. It's like I'm not good enough for the truth. But after thinking about it all, it just makes me laugh because they are the one that is burning the bridge between us. Not me. I've always been there when they needed me. It's sad they don't see that. I think he's starting to realize that I'm not going to chilling on the back burner waiting for him to make up his mind.

Ok. Enough of that. :) Soooo the chain of events that have occurred in the past week have been ummm interesting! ha! Let's just say that it involved with this new guy, that has caught my eye, ending up at my doorstep the other night and that turning into a trip to Toby's for a couple of drinks. :) It's was a pretty awesome night. No lie. And it was so much fun! I was needing of those. It's been nice to realize that not all guys are jerks. There are some decent ones out there. I'm not getting my hopes up too high. I'm really enjoying getting to know this guy slowly. It's also been nice to not focus my attention on a certain someone else. So we'll see where this goes. Keep your fingers crossed for me! Haha! :)

P.S Thank goodness gas prices are starting to go down. For now at least.

I love life right now. I have amazing friends and family. :) Couldn't ask for anything better than that.

Hope everyone else has a great weekend! :)

Oh summer where have you gone?!

I can't believe that summer is practically gone. *sigh* Where did it go? It for sure didn't go the way I have it planned in my mind. But all in all, it still went alright. Thank goodness I have Spirit Days and awesome friends to keep me sane.. well kinda. I think I just went insane with them, therefore, making me feel sane. Makes sense in my mind.

School is right around the corner, which makes me happy actually. I am ready to get back into a busy routine. Figured our our work schedule and realized that when I'm not at work, I am in class and visa versa. I love that though. Means I will stay busy and stay out of trouble .. hopefully anyways. Haha! :) That's the goal anyways.

So finally got all unpacked in the new apt, WHICH I LOVE! I am loving the 2 bedroom place. The bedrooms are bigger and just feel like you have more private space! I can't wait til Katelyn finally moves in! It's gonna be so awesome! It's so nice to not deal with the drama of living with 3 other females. I just can't live with that many girls. Too much drama. Hence why I have more guy friends then gal pals. They just get on my nerves. Haha! I am sure some other girls will back me up on this issue.

So I realized something today that kinda made me open up my eyes just a tad. I was helping my best (guy) friend move today and being with him almost felt awkward. Which is a FIRST for us. I don't know if maybe it's cause we were both tired, me not feeling too hot, being late in the day, overcast in the sky, i mean who knows. Our hugs weren't awkward though. In my opinion, he gives the best hugs of any dude I know. He almost squeezed a tad too tight today. I think I felt a rib crack. Prolly should get that checked out. But anyhoo back to my story and the awkardness. So I was helping him move and we got all his remaining stuff into our 2 cars and went off to his new place. Being the big hearted person I am, I stayed and helped him unload his car as well. During all this, we had our usual convos "We need to hang out.. " "We both are so busy... " "I promise we'll go out and do something special ..." "I want to have your children..." Ya know, the usual. Well this is where it got a tad awkward. I was heading back to the apt and I didn't realize that he,too, was also coming back to campus. When we met at the stairs, there was this moment where you can tell that it was like "Umm ok, we just saw each other and talked. What do I say now" type moment. I've never had that kind of awkwardness with him before. Maybe that should tell me something. Hmm. I'm prolly reading into it too much [as I usually do about alot of things] but again alot of things could factor in why we were the way we were today. Cause earlier when he came over to check out the new apt, everything was like the old days. Who knows? So I figured that it's prolly best that he won't be living next door this Fall. Cause I have a feeling that nothing would get done! Haha! We have too much fun today just yelling from door to door and loud enough to hear each other through walls. *sigh* He's just one confusing fella and I'm just one easily confused gal. Maybe not seeing each other ALL THE TIME will help this semester. It's like we both said, that just means that when we do see each other, it'll be that much more special. I'm sure that sounds like BS to some of ya'll however, I like the way it sounds.

Random thing happened yesterday. I think I'm having a feelings for a friend that I thought I'd never have feelings for. I saw him for the first time in month yesterday and I actually turned into a giddy school girl. wow. So we'll see where that goes, if anywhere at all.

I have the most amazing friends in the world. Just gonna throw that out there. Because it's true. :)

P.S If you aren't/haven't read the Twilight series yet... You're TOTALLY missing out on loving a fictional character. :)

Why must we grow up so fast?

So as I was packing up my apt last night, I came across my high school yearbook from Senior year. Wow oh Wow. Brought back alot of memories. Some very good and some are ones that I wish I could just forget. Although now I'm (and most of my crew from high school) only 22, I sometimes feel like we am too young to do some things. I feel like some of us grow up waaaaaay to fast. I remember in high school how some of us would say "I want to go to college, travel the world, then get married, then have my white picket fence house with 2 kids." Now that I look at it, most of my girls that I rolled with in school are already at the 'white picket fence' stage. I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm happy for them that they are happy. But what is the hurry to get married and settle down? I remember one of my gal-pals saying "If I find my husband in college, then I'm gonna get married and drop out." Sure enough. She met someone and she never returned. DUMMY! Seriously.

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But as I get ready to go home Friday for a friend's wedding, it just makes me a little sad. For one, it's a reminder that I am still single. Not always fun to go wedding single. I'm just saying. And two, it shows that we are growing up so fast. Alot of my gal pals feel like they are on a time line to get married. Most of them already have kids that are a couple of years old. Friends ask me if I feel lost that I'm not hitched, planning a wedding, etc. Honestly, I want to wait to get married til I've done what I WANT to do. I know that sounds selfish at first but hear [or read] me out. Aftter I graduate [which I feel like will be never... haha!] I would LOVE to live a year in NYC or Boston. Preferably in both. Give them each a try. How much fun!? Just so I can give the city life a try. I remember when I visited both of them, I just feel in LOVE with them. I felt like I was in a filming for the Cosby Show while in Boston. Ha! All this reminds me of a conversation I had with my best guy friend back in the day. We talked about each other's goals/dreams, what we want in life, etc., and we though the exact same when it came to this issue. We want to be able to get up and move without strings being attached. Both of us don't really want to get married like late 20's. We both feel like we have so much that we want to do first and as bad as this sounds, we don't want that extra luggage that makes us stop and think twice. Because what's to say that my significant other wants to move to Boston same goals/dreams as myself. Plus my BFFE always joke and say that I have to move to NYC so when he becomes a famous actor, he'll have somewhere to stay when her does promos. Ha! Priceless.

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On a happier note, I really am excited about going home on Friday night though for Kendra's wedding. It's going to be awesome for the fact that alot of my old crew have no idea that I'm coming into town. :) And plus I haven't seen alot of these people since graduation, which has been over 4 years. Holy cow. Be ready for pics next post. :)

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So I've discovered there is one quality of mine, that I love, however realized that it can get me in trouble. I have a huge heart and sometimes I can be too caring. I trust people to easily too. I've always been that way. My daddy is the exact same way. *sigh* This paragraph can be saved for a whole other post . Haha! But I did discover it can sometimes lead to hurt.

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Soooo I'm very excited to get moved into our new apt!!!! :) Although packing sucks like a Hoover vacuum. I'm almost done with my bedroom. All the stuff is off the walls and pretty much all of it's packed. It's kinda weird moving out after being in this apt for two years. :( Alot of memories in good 'ol 234! ;) Wouldn't trade them for anything though. But now it's time for more memories to be made in good 'ol 421 beginning this Fall. At first I was really sad that a certain someone wasn't gonna be living next door, but now that I look at it, it's prolly for the best. Like I always say, some things happen for a reason.

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So a quick recap of this weekend. It was a great weekend. Saturday was pretty much all day shopping. Got new shoes [Pumas actually] which I LOVE now, new shirts from NY&Company [2 for $12], more perfume from Victoria Secret [the Usher perfume is gonna have to wait til next pay day! haha!] But all in all it was a great weekend. Very relaxing. Sucks though cause my check is pretty much gone. Boo to that.

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Well that's pretty much all for now. It's already long enough. Hope everyone has a great week! :) P.S Reading stores like this always make me smile and remember that there are good people in this world. :)

Oh Why Oh Why Must We Be Crazy?

So Spirit Days '08 is finally over. I must admitt that I'm kinda sad to see it end. I do remember in the beginning I was like, "Don't know how this summer is going to turn out. I'm not too sure on the changes or the new crew." but as it came to an end, I was sad. I've made some awesome friends (PC wise and incoming student wise). And talk about the memories. Oh lordy. I didn't think one group could quote sooo much YouTube videos and not get tired of it. Pretty much amazing. It made it even funnier when people had NO CLUE what we were talking about. Then we got the lovely opportunity to enlighten them on what we were talking about! Priceless. But all in all it was a great summer. Even with the creeper guy that wouldn't stop following me. Ha! Just some pics to remember SD '08 by:

Did have a great time though! So much laughter was involved that my abs seriously hurt after our PC dinner one session. Can't beat that. :)

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So to go along with my title, girls are crazy. I know I've said this before, but we really are. Let me explain. Why must we girls go back to something that we know will more than likely hurt us in the future? I even have friends that keep an eye on me to make sure I don't go do that certain something and yet I keep telling myself that everything's ok, when in reality, it really isn't. I know that in the long run I'll get hurt again and yet I keep psyching myself out. Why? I have no clue. I even tell myself all that bad things that have happened b/t us in the past and even still I'm like "Things will change." UGH. And then guys know when a girl is ticked off at them too cause then they do something so sweet out of the blue and then we are like "Damn. Why must guys do this?!?!" A guy friend even confirmed that guys will play their "sweet" card and they know when they are doing it! But in their defense, us girls do that too. And P.S what is up with mixed signals? Whether it be actions or words, they suck. And plus girls are suckers for when it comes to sweet words. I know I am at least. Boys are just stupid. Well, some of them at least. There are still a few good ones out there. Just haven't found them yet. :) But in the end I know I should listen to my friends and realize that I need to stay away from the things that will hurt me (again.). But always easier said than done. I've only felt this way about one other person before. Things were so much easier when boys had cooties.

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Have you had that feeling when something is going to happen? Whether it be big or small. I just have a feeling that Fall semester is going to be a big adventure. I just remember last Fall semester and oh boy that was interesting. One of the most memorable ones here at MSU. Fall is always awesome though. Football games, Homecoming, Family Weekend, etc just makes it awesome. Classes should be great as well. Then when you add in the social life. Oh boy. It's just going to be another interesting one. :)

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So I've been havin my dreams again. I hate having them. They always wake me up in the middle of the night wondering if something is going on with my friends/family. These are the dreams that make me call people the next morning to make sure they are alright. What makes it worse is that usually something that happens in the dream is related to something that has happened or is going to happen to that person. For example, last summer I had a dream that my friend came up to me crying on my shoulder. That's all she did. So the next day I facebooked her and asked her how she was doin and then told her about my dream. Come to find out, her grandmother had just passed away. No lie. Weird? I think so. I had a similiar dream like that last night about another friend and it makes me scared to ask him if everything is alright. *sigh*

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Random people are fun. We went out before Spirit Days and went to a place that I had never been to. SOOOOOOOOOOOO much fun! Here is a pic of two random guys who were dancing behind us and enjoyed having their pics taken:

They were entertaining actually. And funny! :) Anyhoo, this portion is really random but random people are just funny. Makes like interesting.

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That is pretty much all for now. Thank the good lord above that tomorrow is pay day!!! :) AND FRIDAY! :)

cRaZy how things work ...

So Spirit Days this weekend was fab-U-lous!!! :) I must admit that it was one of the best sessions that I've worked! I think the best part was our organization fun! Soo much fun! It's always fun when the greeks do their little stepping and showing off. Although we were saying, we might have to get a cage for cage fighting next time! ha! :) But all in all it was such a fun weekend! I am still tired and dragging along but it's all worth it in the end. Now we are Transfer Day coming up which frightens me because the group is bigger than the last 2 sessions. Holy.Crap.

So one thing I discovered, well reminded me, this weekend about girls is that we are so un-predictable. And it drives me nuts when guys think that they know what we are thinking or they think they know what we want... WHEN WE'VE TOLD THEM WHAT WE WANT! GRR! Sorry-- it's just that one fella really drove me nuts this weekend. I also decided that when it come to guys, it's all about having fun and just enjoying life. I have came to the conclusion that I am just too young to be thinking about settling down. I'm only 22! I can't believe that like half of our graduating class is married and what not. And that's great for them. That may work for them but as for me, that's just not my thing right now. It's still fun to flirt with guys and just have fun. Although I haven't done that in a while, it was fun to do that this weekend! :) Must say, there were some cuties at this weekend's sessions! But some are just too young for me. It's like "Hi. I would like an apple martini and as for my boyfriend, oh, a glass of milk" kind of young. Ha! Well not that bad but I'm just saying. Ha!

So a lady told me on the phone today that I made her day better. Which in turn, made my day better as well. I was helping her get registered for Transfer Day and she thanked me for being so kind and that she never once got upset with me. People like that totally make my day. :)

P.S I love when friends have inside jokes. It's just the best things that friends could have between them, I believe. It's even funnier when people have NO CLUE what you are talking about! Ha! It's great. True story.

I have come to the conclusion that this summer has been filled with all the unexpected things. In May, I had in my mind what kind of summer this was "suppose" to be. Umm yeah. It's been total opposite of that. It's been like a roller coaster summer. It's had it's up ups and it's down downs. I understand that life is like that in general but for some reason it's just been for this summer. Sometimes things go as planned but not this time. I feel like I've really spiritually and mentally grown about some things. I see certain things in different ways and I've even noticed a small change in me as well. Not bad change but things like my opinions and views. For example, I was one of those "anti-sorority" girls. And now, I've given it a second thought. Which totally threw my parents for a loop! Ha! But just little things like that. It's really been an eye-opener for me. But a good eye opener. :)

So totally got pulled over last week. Friday to be exact. Yeah not fun. The idiot gave me 2 tickets. One was totally my fault. My inspection sticker is out. Has been for almost a year. HA! And then he gave me a ticket for my name not bein on the insurance. Umm excuse me. It's my mother's car and she insured it. Ugh. Very frustrating. So now I get to take care of that tomorrow. Whoo.Hoo. That should be fun.

Well I guess that's all for now. I'm still so tired. Prolly going to take a shower and chill for the evening! :) Have a great day! :)

Home*Sweet*Home

Who says you can't go home? Home.was.fabulous! This was exactly what I needed to give me a 're-charge' for the rest of the summer. There was so much stuff on my mind and this weekend really helped make those worries go away. The evenings at home are just so peaceful and quiet. That's what I love about country life. I'll always be a country girl at heart. I love that life. I wish I could be there all the time. Did a little grilling this weekend because I am the grill master! I made all the following on 4th of July: BBQ chicken, BBQ ribs, cheeseburgers, potatoes with smoked cheese, sausage links, steaks .. and I think that's all. Needless to say, we ate like Kings that night! :) 4th of July was awesome. The town celebration was great, as usual. Had the traditional foot long corn dog! Yummy. Then what could make the night better than awesome fireworks?! It was such a great day and wonderful weekend! :)

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Soo don't you just love it when you find songs that you feel like are totally talking to you or about what's going on in your life?! Yeah-- me too! Thanks to the wonderful donation of awesome music from "MAPY" [you know who you are!] and I have found 'that' song! The chorus is pretty much self explanatory and I don't think I could have said it better myself:

"Why d'ya have to be so cute?
It's impossible to ignore you
Must you make me laugh so much
It's bad enough we get along so well
Say goodnight and go"

But it's so true right now. And I have so many great friends telling me "Brandy, you need to let him stop playing ping pong with your emotions." And sometimes we just need that one moment where it hits us and we are like "OMG. They are right." I had that moment this weekend. I have in a way, let this person take control of my motions and pretty much my thoughts. I met a sweet & cute guy this weekend, and I HESITATED ON TALKING TO HIM because I seriously thought "What if I still have a chance with the other guy?" Seriously. What's wrong with me? Have I really let that person take that much control?! I didn't think I'd ever feel that way or let someone else make me feel that way. That's when I was like "Ya know what?! Screw that." So I talked the new cutie. It ended up where he was to work all night so we couldn't hang out BUT he has my number! :) haha! And the first "letting go" steps have begun! :) All this prolly sounds so cheesy but it means alot to me and alot of my friends know what I'm talking about too. He and I are still gonna be great and amazing friends but I just need to learn how to move on and take that control back.

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Can't believe summer is almost half way over! OMG. Although, I am pretty excited about the Fall semester. I just have a feeling that it's gonna not only be eventful but interesting.. :)

Well I need to get unpacked and lay down. Hope everyone else had a fabulous weekend as well!!! :) Have a great night!

This time tomorrow ...

So this time tomorrow evening, I'll be home celebrating the 4th of July weekend with the family!!! Gosh, can't wait! :) It's gonna be so amazing to finally relax and spend some good quality time with them! Hope everyone else has a fabulous weekend as well! Don't get into too much trouble!

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Spirit Days weekend came and went without a hitch! Pretty amazing for it being the first session! It was so awesome meeting the kids we helped register over the phone! Sometimes it's creepy and they are like "Hey you're the one we talked to on the phone.. " or "Oh we know who you are .." But kids and parents like that just make it so worth it! Some of the kids were so hilarious and being around them almost make you feel great because you know that you had a part in welcoming them to campus. It's even more awesome that they recognize you when Fall semester starts too. This Spirit Days we did get nicknames which totally made the weekend more awesome! Due to the smallness of our backpacks and the bright color shirts [and plus me being Hispanic .. haha!] I am Dora , Michele is Diega, Shahala is Mapy, Fransico is Boots and we just decided that Sue is Backpack. Pretty much amazing and it was even more hilarious that we annoyed the hell out of people when Michele and I would sing the song. Priceless. Oh then there was the tennis ball.. hehe! That kept me sane although it made some others go insane. :) All in all it was a great Spirit Days! Our Real World skit was pretty awesome and I'm glad I was able to be a part of that! :) Can't wait for the other 2 sessions! They are gonna rock just as hard! Here are some memorable quotes from the weekend:

"She does tricks on the East side just to get a quick fix.." -Dustin and AnTuan to our waitress at Golden Corral [talking about Michele]

"Oh bless you.." -AnTuan to our waitress for bringing out more plates

"I love how you act black .." -Michele to AnTuan

Shahala jumping the curb in 'ol Blue ... PRICELESS.

"Where's waldo?" -Shahala and I all weekend about a certain someone

"We are like the country fraternity.." -Us overhearing a certain frat describe themselves

A conversation between Jenn, Shahala and I over Monday breakfast:
J: "You didn't get any of the questionable oatmeal?"
B: "That was oatmeal?! I was wondering what that was."
S: "They look like beans."

"Ahh you bastard." -Shahala talking to her tater tots at breakfast .. one got a way...

"Boys are stupid.." -Michele and I pretty much all weekend ..

Those were just some of them. I am sure there are more but those are the ones that stand out the most in my mind. I really enjoy the counselors this summer. I got to know some of them this weekend and they are HILARIOUS! :) We did discover that Michele, Dustin, AnTuan and I are not allowed to all sit together because we continuously laugh. Our abs really got a work out, let me tell ya! True story. [All you Shahala!]

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Today was a pretty awesome day in the office. I was pretty much there all day and totally didn't mind. It was awesome and I *heart* those ladies so much. They are the ones that make me day sometimes. Just continuous laughing. Which is what life is all about. :) I just can't wait til I hit the road to head home! Although that drive is boring at times, I love it at times. It's a nice drive to do some thinking and listen to some awesome music. [btw, thank you shahala for some new rockin' jams!] It's also time to just reflect about some things. Those are always the best drives! :)

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Well I prolly won't blog til I get back on Sunday! So I hope everyone has a great and safe holiday break! Be safe while blowing stuff up! Much love to you all! :)

Laughter is important in life! :)

Soo.. funniest quote from the past 24 hours -- but first, let me set up the scene. The awesome ladies of the office had a little going away party for Jenn. We are all sitting at the table eating some lovely food and we start talking about alcohol. Haley proceeds to tell us that she has NEVER had a drink! [remind you, she is over 21. So age is not the issue.] Which proceeds to this:

Michele: Wait, so you don't drink? Like at all?

Haley: Nope. Never had the desire to.

Michele: Have you been to a bar or anything? Do you go?

Haley: I've been and go to bars. I just don't drink.

Me, leaning over and whispering to Michele: That's like going to the library and not knowing how to read.

Promise it was as hilarious as it sounds!! :) That lead to Michele telling the whole table and everybody laughing. It was great! :) And now I'm famous and that quote is now on Shahala's facebook profile! SWEET. :)

Well although I'm freakishly tired and it's 1:47am and I have still yet gone to bed, today was a great day. Tomorrow starts the wonderful Spirit Days weekend. Hopefully it will all go well without a hitch. Keep the fingers crossed for us all! :)

7 years ago today ...

I can't believe it's been 7 years since my grandmother's suicide. It seems like only yesterday my mother and I were getting that call at work from my paw telling us that maw-maw was dead. I remember I had just had my surgery that week before so I still wasn't 100% back to my normal self. All I remember hearing at work was the type of scream from my mom that I never want to hear from anyone again. It was the type of scream that you only hear in the horror movies. *sigh* That whole week is just something that I wish I could just forget.

My maw-maw was a one of a kind woman. She was a security guard out at the prison. She was small thing which made that even funnier! She tried to be all bad around us but it never worked! Haha! :) I loved her so much. She would make me laugh like no one could. Her and my paw would fight sometimes but deep down they had the love for one another that I hope I can find one day. They were like a comedy act sometimes. I remember one time they came to visit and my paw was just antagozing the hell of out of maw-maw and finally she was like "Alright, we need to head home Oscar." So paw walks into our kitchen, grabs a broom and hands it to her and says "Alright, here's your ride. I'll follow you in the car." Priceless and so hilarious.

My mother and I had so many regrets and "What Ifs?" after she died. I remember being mad at her a couple of days before hand. I remember being so upset that I didn't answer the phone when she tried calling me. That was the last time she called. It took me FOREVER to let that go and for me to get over that. I always kept telling myself "What if I had just answered that phone and just got over whatever I was so ticked off at?" And I do remember what I was mad at and looking back at it now, it was the DUMBEST thing EVER. It was something that I kicked myself for because it was over something so dumb. My mom had a hard time as well because that same day maw-maw had a doctors appt at the doctor's office mom worked at. Maw-maw then asked mom if she wanted to go to lunch and talk. Mom really wasn't in the mood [they didn't have the best relationship in the world] and so she was like "Well maybe next time." That was the last time they saw each other. Mom went through the same "kicking herself" phase I did. We had the hardest time with that and it took us a long time to stop blaming ourselves for her suicide. I still have a copy of her letter she left. She left a note for me telling me that she was going to miss watching me graduate and miss my puffy checks and smile. Gosh, how I miss that woman.

Ever since then, I remember make a goal to myself that I would never let stupid things come between me and the ones I love. Always letting the people in my life know how much I love them. Sometimes thats always easier said than done. But I do the best I can. Sometimes people may feel like my constant reminder of love is annoying but for me it's the only way it helps me deal with those kinds of things in my life.

On a happier note, today was a great day. It was weird because I saw quite a few blue jays today and to me they look like that have silver wings. That in turned reminded me of the song we played at maw-maw's funeral and it was called "Silver Wings". I like to think that she is always around me, which I like. As I've stated before, I have the most amazing people in my life. I am surrounded by constant laughter and just pure happiness. If you don't have that in your life, then you just aint livin'! :)

So much to comprehend ...

Although death usually brings sadness, I truly believe it should be a celebration of that person's life as well. As hard as it may be for us to realize that person is gone, there are those moments that we begin to think back and remember that it was such a wonderful time while they were here with us. Starting last night, in a matter of a 12-hour span, I found out about 3 deaths. My best friend's frat brother, our Dean's father, and a friend's brother-in-law. WoW. One alone is hard to hear about, much less adding 2 more to that. Any death is hard to hear about but for some reason when I hear about someone that is around my age passing away, it always makes me open my eyes and put a lot of things in perspective. And it's a reminder that life is short. We are only here for a certain amount of time so we might as well make the best of it. Reminds me of a quote that I heard from cowboy Rob Smets while we were at the PBR Finals last November:

"It seems that these days most people spend their time making a living instead of making a life. We are only here for a short while and we should be making the most of it. It doesnt matter whether youre a millionaire or have the fastest car. Sometimes we all need a reality check to bring us back to what is really important"

I think my best friend had one of those reality checks today. While walking and talking with him, he told me that he wants to fix things with his dad and that they are going fishing next time he goes home. That made my heart happy. Some things are just not worth being upset about and it's just better to realize that life moves on and people make mistakes.

Ya know, we all say that we need to live everyday as if it were our last. Always easier said than done but I believe that if we strive to live like that then there is no telling how our lives would be. That's my new goal. :) And to remember that tomorrow is never promised.

Lovin' this feeling!!

So .. I'm lovin' this way that I'm feeling! :) It's like a HUGE weight has been lifted from my shoulder and it feels GREAT! And right now, this quote means so much! I was talking to my daddy earlier today and he asked how everything from the past few weeks have been going [that I have quoted as 'hell week'] and I did notice how everything from the past weeks came together. AMAZING! Even though at the time things are happening, we always think "Why the hell is this happening right now?!", but in the end we begin to think back and notice that if those things wouldn't have happend then they wouldn't be as great as they are now. So many examples alone happend on Thursday and Friday and I'm so glad they did. One of my best friends and I finally talked things out and we are better than EVER! Which totally makes me happy because I hate being on the rocks with any of my friends. I just hate being on the rocks in general with anyone, much less when it involves one of my best guy friends.

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Today in church was awesome. We talked about worship and it really got me thinking about how sometimes I let myself get away from my wonderful relationship with my maker. I still have a great relationship with Him and my Faith has seemed to be tested more than ever these past few weeks. But then I realize that He has a plan for me and I should remember that but at times it's so hard. But leaving church this morning, I just felt so alive and so refreshed. Almost like the same feeling when you leave church camp after a week. That feeling is always great to have and I hope it last for a long time.

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I was talking to my parents today and I realized just how lucky I am to have them as my parents. I am VERY lucky! They are such amazing people and they always know when to tell me "Bran - you're being selfish and you need to get your head out of your a$$." They always seem to tell me the right things even at times when I don't want to hear them. They are always looking out for me and they are truly my best friends. LOVE them to pieces. They told me today that I sounded wonderful and that I just sounded so care-free. And I really do feel that way. I can't wait til I get to go home for the weekend and see them! I'm so ready to cook out and spend time with my awesome family.

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One message I shared with most of my gal pals this weekend was: just because you may think you and a certain guy are supposed to be together, doesn't always mean you are MEANT to be together. Something that alot of girls need to think about.

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So as a closing, I really hope this week has the wonderful awesome feeling that I've had since Thursday. I'm sure it will if I just keep a smile on my face and an open mind that everyday is a new day and that God has placed some awesome and amazing people in my life. :)

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This saying could not be more true ... :)

So although this week started out a little rough, it got TONS better. It's like I always say, it's just amazing how things turn out when you least expect them. I still do believe that certain people are put in your life for a reason. And thank the good lord up above that I have some AMAZING people in my life that make me happy! :)

One exciting thing from this weekend is that I'm going up to Connecticut in August to see one of my best friends! OMG. So excited! We are gonna drive over to Boston and see where I would want to live after I graduate [which I feel like won't be for another decade and a half]! Haha! :) But I am very excited to not only see her but just to go back to Boston! *sigh* Can't wait!! :)

Pretty pumped about my mom going to California next week! She's going to have so much fun! I wish her layover was long in Dallas cause I would totally drive over to see her while she waits! But I think she's only going to be there for 30 mins. Not long enough.

So as I was reading the news today, I noticed an interesting article. In Massachusetts, there are 17 high school girls that made a "pregnancy pact" to get pregnant so they all could have their babies together. One girl got pregnant from a 24 year old homeless man. seriously. I understand friends wanting to have babies together so they grow up together and what not but when you are between 13-17.. wow. I know it's not a particular goal that I had in mind when I was that age. I could IMAGINE having a baby then. I can't even imagine having one now. I just feel like it makes you grow up faster than you need to.

I did discover one thing about females this week. We tend to over-react at the smallest things and we tend to make small things seem like an atomic bomb went off when in all reality it was just a little firework. And it's not a good feeling knowing you over-reacted either. But it just reminds yourself that one needs to get all the facts straight before they send their wrath upon someone. Haha!

Oh. Isn't it amazing how ONE text message can change the ENTIRE mood of the day? I had that happen yesterday and let me tell you, it just set the mood for the rest of the afternoon and even transfered my mood to today! Gotta love it.

So this weekend is going to be full of hanging out with friends and just relaxing. I'm really pumped about Spirit Days and all the parents that I have become BFFE with over the phone! :) Haha!

I'm also ready for the weekend that I get to go HOME!!! CAN'T WAIT! I'm just ready for 4th of July and all the festivities that come with that! Fair on the Square, cooking out, watching fireworks ... *sigh* And I can't wait to just hang out with the family! It's going to be soooo nice!

Well, I hope everyone had a fabulous Friday and a wonderful weekend! :)

The Cone...

Oh. the lovely cone. So let me explain the story that has had Katelyn and I laughing constantly, not only at the cone, but people's reaction to the cone. Which BTW, this pic was taken from my window. That hot blue cougar is my baby!

I think it's hilarious how people act sometimes! Ok there is the thing that K and I have been doing for the past week. There was this random traffic cone in the grass area [have no idea why] so the other day while we were on our way to play tennis, I was like "Let's put this is a spot and see how many people don't park there!" So we did and every time we would come back we would move it within that spot. And remind you that it's summer so parking is not that big of an issue. Now if it was Fall semester, that would be even more hilarious!!! :) Well maybe not to some people, but I know we'd get a kick out of it!

But the other night when I got back from K's house, I was sitting in my car listening to my fav song on the radio and then I noticed a car come wheeling in and was thinking "whoo hoo. a close spot!" and then they come wheeling in just to stop suddenly when they see the cone they slam on the brakes and back up! Priceless. So they backed up and parked somewhere else! Ha!

Then earlier today I was chilling at my computer just looking out the window every now and then. Well I noticed that campus cops were parked in our lot so, of course, I look out my window and see what's up. The cop gets out of the truck, walks over to the cone in the "blocked" parking spot, looks at the cone, turns around, gets back in and leaves. RANDOM. But funny at the same time.
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Update time @ 9:59pm: We moved the cone again this afternoon to another spot. Sadly, I think someone ran over the cone because it's no longer there and there is a truck in it's spot. :( Sadness. But it brought a week of laughter into our lives! :) It was that think I talked about earlier.. it's the object God puts in our life to make us laugh. This time it was cone. :)